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Bonjour! x
Bonjour! x
J.
3rd March
Pisces
Law student
Love foods, Desserts, & everything pretty
Summer Love
Take things for granted?
Hello Readers !
How are you guys doing? Haven't had any time to update my blog, and i miss blogging so much! I've been so so busy with my studies and work 🐝 And i guess it's about time to update my blog, i shall not abandon it for too long. :|
Exam is coming real soon, in about 4 months time? i am so not ready for it yet. i've been procrastinating. oh nohhh, the correct description shall be 'i've been neglecting my studies since xmas break. ohmygawd, this is really bad. Before xmas break, i actually do some revision and make notes consistently. but ever since xmas break, i stop making notes each time after tutorials. 😖 i know. i do know this is not supposed to happen! but it did. i felt so guilty right now, or maybe all these while, the guilt feelings actually hit me all the time. fuck. I'm running out of time. 😭 not only this, my application is kinda fucked up. i haven't gotten my confirmation yet. imma so worried. if I'm flopped on my application, I'm so screwed and fucked. 😫 ohwell, and now i gotta remind myself to study everyday, at least two hours, to make sure myself to finish studying before it's too late. 🙇
And yes, life's been good, and I'm afraid. I have that fear, if things get too good, they gonna be taken away as soon as i own them. Happiness doesn't stay too long, i know that there'll be one day, it will be taken away, and long gone. I'm trying hard to appreciate it each day, and hoping that it stays as long as possible, and never hold any high expectation for it to stay, because i know it will leave me one day. i wanted to be positive, and didn't want to expect it too much, because i know i might get hurt and disappointed one day. even though deep down i hope, that day will never come. 😐
Some things are too good to be true, it's too surreal that sometimes I wonder, am i in some wonderland? Am i dreaming? 💭 it's too surreal that, i feel like it's just a dream. you know that kind of feeling? the feeling where someone treat you nicely, and you want more and more. i feel like, i am becoming someone whom i do not know anymore. people hate me now. friends leaving me. I'm now all alone. nobody likes me. 🙍 i dont know. perhaps i am just making up stories hahahaha.
i never request for anything more, or demand anything from anyone. i just hoping for a genuine treatment from people. and do not ever take me for granted. because i hate that. never take my feelings for granted. never take my kindness for granted. i can be scary at times, i really hate that. 😏
i would rather to be revealed to the truth, than being hidden by the lies. i would rather being known to the facts, than being covered by the made-up stories. 😐
Be genuine,be true to me.I would acceptwhoever person you are,whichever way you behave,whatever you like,I would never judge.Just be yourself,and stay the way you are.Be honest.Be good.
x,
J
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