Laid back Sunday // Staying in on a Sunday alone, having period cramp and headache. I should be going out, hanging out with my friends, and doing my thang at cafe, sipping on a cuppa coffee, and eating my fav cakes. fml :/ but well, at least i can have some quality time alone, watching tv, reading book, and doing some blogging. 

at times like these, i wish i can have someone by my side, to take care of me. period cramp is seriously no joke :( and what the girls always tell the guys : to tolerate with them whenever their period come, is true. guys can never go through what girls have to go through. 

sometimes, i wonder. do guys hurt as much as girls do in a relationship? do they know how hurtful a girl can get whenever they got dumped or got cheated on. i know guys do get cheated on and get dumped too. I'm a girl, i dont know how guys feel at times. so I'm speaking on behalf of the girls. of course, there are also playgirls out there, dating two guys at the same time, or more than two, I'm not sure. But the only thing i know is if a girl truly loves a guy, they take quite some time to get it over, of course everyone is different, i am the kind where i get over a relationship until i met a new guy and start a new relationship. so most of the time, i take more than a year. i know u guys must be thinking i am abnormal lol. but i dont think it is. lol. 'cos i know there are quite a number of girls who did the same thing as i do. because we're the same kind of girl. we take things seriously, especially relationship. but sometimes, taking things seriously aint gonna bring you any good. its either you're lucky enough to have met someone whom truly love you, or you get cheated on. well, i believe that's fate. 

anyway, after going through a few heartbreaks, i hardly believe in faith. hardly believe in relationship. this feeling suck. really suck. falling in love, getting loved, loving someone, getting dumped, getting hurt, heartbreak, tears, hatred, forgiving, etc. it's like a cycle. it's not a statement tho. relationship is not necessarily to be like this. lol there are also a lot of sweet couple getting through years without giving up on each other. it needs a lot of faith and trust in order to maintain a relationship. once the trust is broken, it's hardly to keep the relationship going even though you willing to forgive your other half. you can never trust your other half like how you used to be, once you get cheated on before, even if its only once. 

and lately, that feeling hit on me again. i admit that i started to miss him, already. even though there's nothing between us, none at all. lol but i just somehow, have something. oops. 🙊 #shameless sometimes i feel jealous, sometimes i feel mad. lol well, i believe that time will do its job. gotta focus on things that are more important, e.g. studies and work. 

lol something is wrong with me, did i just talk about relationship issues? oh crap. 

alright, thats it. bye 

x,

J