Olaaaa! Cant believe that I'm staying in on a Friday night. lol. i seriously need a good rest, after partying so hard over the past few weeks. well, I'm not a party animal alright. :)

the last time i blogged, was a month ago? if I remember correctly. Finally get to spend some quality with my macbook and bed lol. finally get to blog about stuff that i've been keeping inside my heart all this while. i've quite a lot on my mind, but i dont know how to put them in words. and I'm afraid of offending people, afraid if they gonna judge, afraid if I'm gonna hurt anyone. 

yes, i met him last saturday at zouk, it was a shock to me. i dont know why did i feel surprised when i already expected him to be there, i literally fast walking to the toilet once i saw him, never really care bout my gf lol, just dragged her along to the toilet. but she seemed more shocked than i do. lol. anyway, even though i've expected that he's gonna be there, but i NEVER expect he's gonna be at our table. wtf. that was so fucking awkward, where his current was there as well. fuckthisshit. i kind of got lost, and didn't know what to do at that moment, i just want to leave that table. thank god, joan arrived at that point of time, and brought me to velvet. well, i admit that i was trying to avoid him, trying to not let him see me. but, he saw me in the end. i dont know why was i avoiding him, and i know i did no wrong, why was i the one who keep trying to hide from him, when he was supposed to be the one? wtf. but i had a great night with my babes nonetheless. thanks guys for saving me from awkwardness that night. 

it wasn't really a big deal for bumping into him actually. i wasn't really that mind to have met him again, in a club. ohwell. shouldn't just walked over and say hi. lol. i should've done that. 

Taylor's gonna drop her new song on 18th June! omg, can't wait. :D and recently I'm kinda into ed sheeran's songs. his songs are amazing :) oh ya, watched The Fault in Our Stars! like finally! omg, this movie is too touching, and i cried thrice throughout the movie. and i cried like a baby at the ending. omg. felt embarrassing at the same time lol. but its okay, cos almost everyone in the cinema was crying with me :p it was a good movie indeed :') how can augustus be so kind? how can he be so thoughtful? i kinda of fell for him lol. 

so yah. i have some issues lately, and i know it was just some illusion, it was unreal. let time do its job, everything's gonna be fine real soon. :) i dont know why, and since when. it's like its gonna be impossible, but somehow i still.. i dont know how to say. ugh. feelings suck. seriously. suck.