Yes, I cut my hair short. Everyone I meet, the first question they asked was 'Eh, why you cut your hair short?' well, i seriously dont know what to answer lol. anyway, i didn't post any of my short hair photos on Instagram, Facebook or Twitter. perhaps i dont really like my new hair? haha. anyway, it wasn't my intention to cut my hair this short, i wanted it to be longer by one inch. it would be better i supposed? cause this shoulder length is kind of awkward. 😶 but, i kind of getting used to this hair d. i think it looks alright on me. i had this thought of cutting my hair short like few months ago, but i did not have the gut to. well, my hairstylists did it for me. lol. the moment i saw my short hair in the mirror, i kind of showing black face. lol. i dont know how to smile at my hairstylist, because this wasn't the length i wanted. but anyway, i was kinda happy receiving compliments from a few people i met in the past week. :) still gotta thank to my hairstylist, Calvin from Number76. i love my hair now 😊

so, today i gotta blog about some personal stuff. I feel like i started to stay away from people whom i dislike or uncomfortable with. i dont know what's wrong with me. i used to think that they're a bunch of friend where our friendship gonna last till forever. this friendship is very precious i shall say, as it started since high school till now. i used to really treasure this relationship and the people. but recently, i found that myself starting to stay away from them. they're not bad people, they dont harm people, maybe as i grow up, i started to get kinda ego, i protect myself, i started to show my emotion, started to show if i dont like something, because i have choices. i can choose to not attend certain outing, i can choose not to show up if I'm unhappy. they're definitely a bunch of fun people, maybe it was my problems. i seriously dont like to get teased by people non-stop. i have limits too. who loves to get teased anyway. 😒 so yah, i dont know if they found out about it, but if they do, just let it be. i just wanna stay away from dramas, sarcasms, and just wanna be happy. 

people are getting scarier nowadays. seriously dislike it when people tend to judge, or talk bad about others. its like, why do you have to do this? does it really concern you that much? people do things for reasons, you should know how cruel the reality is in this world. if they ever had a choice, they wouldn't be doing such things in the very first place. if doing it will make them happy and make their life better, why not? 

late night ranting again. sorry. 

just being kinda emotional these days. i dont know. i think i've lost myself again. 

i need a lot of good food, a lot of dessert to make myself happy.

ugh. something is wrong with me lol. 

and yeah, life is tough, as always. 

x,

J