Gonna do a late night post before i head off to bed. well, not really a late night post, since it's only 11:40pm. :| 

How're you guys doing? x

Finally started my working life last monday, it's been only one week of work, and i'm already feeling exhausting and tiring. dont know how am i gonna survive in the next six months, and in the future :O Working doesn't seem that bad after all, even though i do not have any companions this time, but being able to keep myself occupied is good. so now i am back to sleep early, and wake up early. i can really sleep when it's only 10 o'clock at night. haha. imagine how tired am i? and i have at least 8 hours of sleep per day, but it just doesn't seem enough at all. :/ such a pig. met up w le bff chermaine last thursday, it was a short but nice catch up, it lasted only like 2 hours? definitely not enough!! told her about it, and she laughed at me. :/ anyway, dont fucking care d. 

hmmz, dont know if i am back to the party animal lifestyle. Zouk two weeks in a row :D it was exhausting, but FUN! I dont know, i drank quite a lot last saturday, and every time i drank too much, i dont seem to sleep well when i got home. my tummy feels so unwell each time, and that makes me so uncomfy. :/ but fuck it. alcohols sometimes make me feel so much better. my way of releasing stress. :p *excuses* anyway, went to Zouk again yesterday. TGIF! it was a lot better than last week, even though the musics aint that nice. but ya, dancing in the dance floor always make me feel good. like, you could just be relax, and just dance with the musics. you know. like you could totally enjoy yourself, dont need to care about what other people. Didn't drink that much, cos i want to fucking sleep lol. well, just controlling myself, and set a limit for myself. no more downing a few glasses in one shot. i dont know if other people think that clubbing is some unhealthy activity. to me, it's just an entertainment. you go there have fun with friends, enjoy.. and some people just like to make a deal out of it. meh.

these days, i thought about friendship issue. and come to the conclusion that, i dont need so many friends, but just need one real friend. having fake friends is so tiring. like you gotta wear a mask in front of them, afraid of being judged by them, and being humiliated by them. i just dont like to pretend, and to please them, when they're not even liking me perhaps? well. pleasing people is really tiring. why do i have to do all these to just make someone happy, while he or she won't appreciate? hello. i am here doing something, and you are there spoiling it. such a turn off. and some people, i've already gave up on them. feeling utterly disappointed. i know i am stupid. pfft.

everyone told me, it was definitely the best choice to break it. yea, i know it long time ago, that's why i made that decision to break it. i always know it's the best choice, i never wanted it to restart, and have no intention too. I just hardly let go of something, i need time. but thank you guys, for waking me up even though i've awaken long time ago. some of you, i dont even know you guys. but you guys still stand on my side. well, the only thing i would say is I'm perfectly good, and I'm happy with my life. and i just need a good rest from any dramas. and i've said, i wish him all the best. ohwell, i shall not mention this anymore. it's enough. 

12.01am. 

It's already March. time flies really fast. two months just passed like that. :/ well, March, my birthday month, but I'm not feeling excited nor happy. just feeling meh. dont know since when i've hated my birthday month. i dont really like celebrating birthdays. okay, i should appreciate my birthdate lol.. 

anyway, just wanted to say thanks to the people around me, who really love me, care about me, and sincerely taking me as their good friend. to be honest, i dont who's taking me as their good/best friend. i dont mind if you come to me, or whatsapp or text, or call me, and tell me, 'hey, you're my bff, bitch'. haha. that would be really sweet, and that would make my day for sure :)) for those who i've been treating them as my bffs, i've started to feel frustrated, and disappointed. i feel like i am doing something really stupid, and end up I'm like a nobody. oh fuck it. 

oh gosh, i swear too much. :/ 

i really gotta stop swearing that much, it's no good. 

oh, i am going to Taylor Swift's concert! :DDD

I AM SO EFFING EXCITED FOR IT, AND CANT WAIT! HOPE IT IS 11TH JUNE TMR! OMGGG, I FEEL LIKE IM DREAMING OR SOMETHING. 

*fansgirlmodeon* 

tickets sold out damn freaking fast, like the people are totally insane! the tix sold out within 30 mins. crazy people. and i didn't get to buy the tic i wanted, so i got the 295 tix. which i didn't want to. cos it's free seating, that means i gotta go queue up early, in order to get a good seats. wtf right? i've never done things like that before, but for taylor swift, it's all worth it. :D seriously can't wait for it! 

okay, gotta sleep, as I'm actually very tired now, resulting from party last night. :/ 

Goodnight errbody! *kisskiss*

A vain photo of myself :p