Here's a sneak peak for my next post. haha. 

Currently at Tous Les Jours, Bangsar, enjoying some time alone, while waiting for sister to get her hairdo done. :) and i got cheated by their reviews, the wifi here aint working :( and I'm using my personal hotspot. dafug *pissedoff* and my phone's batt gonna drain like fuck. anyway, I'm gonna continue what I'm gonna blog few days ago. It was a random morning, woke up and i switched on my computer, go on FB, and saw someone posting a post regarding her sis' death. I was all shocked, and i seriously thought it was a prank, until i found out people posting up on fb one by one, saying things like 'RIP, Deepest condolences, etcetc' and i was forced to believe that it was real. At that moment, i was too shocked, and i did not want to believe it was real, because it was just too sudden, and unbelievable. :/ 

One of my high school friend, passed away. She was such a cheerful, nice, smart girl. Everyone likes her basically. but god decided to take her breath away. I dont know what had exactly happened to her, but i heard from friend she passed away because of virus infection. and one of the reasons was her uni didn't want to call ambulance to her, so it was uni's negligence i supposed. Still remember how we both met each other during high school time. We participated in some sort of cultural show in conjunction with merdeka, and we were to wear cheongsam. She was a low profile and humble girl. Love her personality so much. but life is really unfair. took away such a beautiful girl. 

The moment i know about this news, I was so scared, so afraid, if someone else around me gonna leave me anytime. but touchwood, i seriously duwanna encounter anything like this anyway, especially people whom i really care bout, or close to me. how scary death can be. We never know when it gonna happen, and we never know when's gonna be the last goodbye. It is something unpredictable. On that day itself, i texted him. it was the first time i texted him after the break-up. i didn't know why would i do that. i just want him to be safe. I told him to take care of himself, to be safe. I know somehow i still care about him deep inside, i dont know if i was doing it out of love, but i just know that if i chose not to do it at last, i might regret after that. perhaps we should look at it this way, expressing love, showing care to people around us, doesn't harm us, it's something that one can do for another, and it is actually a good thing to both side, it warms their heart, it brightens up their day, why not? it doesn't cost you a single penny. 

Through this incident, i found that i've grown up, not a lot, at least, a bit haha. i've learned not to take life for granted, appreciate every single thing that you have now. dont complain over those little stuffs. you should be happy with what you have now. Be happy, stay healthy, that's the happiness one can ever have. anyway, i do feel stupid for texting him after i found out he has a gf now. i felt stupid for doing that, because i feel like i did something extra, like i've got no right to do that. well, after sharing it with my girl, i think it's not something shameful, or annoying, it's just a text after all. :) 

Love life, make sure you enjoy your life to the maximum while you can. and please show your love to someone you really care about. Love your family, your friends, everyone around you. :) Life is too short to worry about anything. just live life to the fullest! xx

Ps, i know it's hard to say stuff like these, to not worry about anything.. well, it's all depend on you. depends on how you think about it, how you look at it. everyone has their own worries, but it is just a general saying. :)) 

x,

J