2013 has finally come to an end. I'm gonna blog about my 2013 before i think of the resolutions for 2014. It has really been a year with a lot of ups and downs. I started blogging when i was in high school, and the reason why i blog is because of my friends around me. Some friends whom are not so close to me. They kind of 'inspired' me to blog, and then i set up my blog. This aint the one and only blog i have, but the second public blog, because i wanted to leave some bad memories behind, so i created this new one to jot down the happier memories. but still, life aint only got happy memories, but also sad memories. I've never wanted my blog to be known to the public, as in the whole world. perhaps only very few of them know about the existence of my blog, and only few of them who really care bout me will constantly read my blog to check on me. i dont know who does that constantly, but i am thankful enough for you guys to check on me once in a while, it means that you guys care about me. :) 

2013, I've achieved a few things, which i never thought i could achieve. 

Firstly, study overseas has been one of my dream when i was still a kid. It seems like something very far from me, something that i could never achieve. but i did it. To go to UK to study aint easy, but i survived. of course, I'm thankful to have that bunch of good friends to keep me company in Reading. i wouldn't have done it without them, because it would have been so lonely being alone in an unfamiliar town. 

Secondly, to being able to graduate from law school at the age of 21. It can be said that it was the best gift on my 21st. it's not something money-valuable, and being a degree holder aint something that great, and i still have a professional paper to take in the coming september. but to pass all the 3 years of law school, is definitely not as easy as what people might think/see. 3 years of law school, was one of the best memories in my life. I never regret of choosing this path, as a law student, to have met so many awesome people, and to spend 3 years of my life with them. :')

Thirdly, I've learned to be stronger, and learned not to get stubborn on something, and most importantly learned how to let go, move on, forgive someone who has hurt you, and to forget. Even though I'm still learning, and it's something one can never stop learning. It aint easy, its very hard actually. Right from the start, i thought i've found my source of happiness, because i met him on the first day of 2013. but seems like it was just another nightmare. these days, i've been thinking why would god do this to me, what have i done to deserve all these. and been putting blames on myself, if right from the start i never make that decision, i will never be this upset, will never get hurt, will never cry so much, will never put in so much effortless effort. i know i shouldn't be thinking this way, but it was definitely one of the dumbest decision i have made, and the second time i realised i was a dumbfuck. two months plus, i came to realise, no one is to be blamed, and i've decided to let go, and learn to be smarter next time. I told myself, i'll never be a dumbfuck anymore. 

2014, i wish for nothing, but just a peaceful year, with no dramas. i need a break from all these heartbreaking moments. 2014, please be good to me. I just need to survive till September. and my biggest wish for the year will be, BPTC. i wish this time i could make it to the UK. pleaseeee. 

There are a lot more to write, but i think i just gonna keep it to myself. This post gonna be the last post i mention about him, mention about it. and then there will not be any related post anymore. New year, New me. :) Say bye to all sorts of sorrow in 2013, say bye to all those fuckers, say bye to all the tears that i've had, say bye to the fucked up 2013. 

simple #ootd on the last day of 2013. 

Zara Top, Pull & Bear high waisted Shorts, Ice Pearl Onyx Gizeh, Topshop Necklace.

Ps, first post in 2014. :)

pooiling.