Hello November! Bonjour Dimanche :)

Good day ahead everyone, even though half of the day has already passed, but to those who just got up from the bed or it's still early morning over there, bonjour! 

It has been a while since i got myself calm down, and think about all sorts of problems, issues, solutions, and possibilities. ohwell. all i wanna say is life still goes on, no matter how hard the reality hit on you sometimes. in life, there is always some obstacles, that block your way, if your tough enough, it wouldn't have beat u down. no matter how hard life gets, we gotta stand strong, and prove those people that your not weak, and you can do even better. 

Too many issues these days, too many thoughts running through my mind, and too many feelings to handle. and i've made a decision. it hurts, but i believe that, in the long run it's good for both of us. 

few days ago, i came across this blog, and read a blog post written by the blogger. it's sort of a Q&A post. and i questioned myself with the questions asked by her. 

1. Which couple that you look up the most to?

Apparently,  there is no specific pair of couple that i look up the most to. but of course i do feel envy sometimes when i see couples being sweet and lovely. They might be just strangers i saw on the street, in the shopping mall or restaurants. or even some 'friends' on fb posting their sweet photos up, showing people how sweet they are right now. or even some close friends around me. Even though I'm not single now, and i have someone with me too. but sometimes, when i come across their photos on fb or instagram, i am jealous. they are really sweet. seeing their boyfriends treating them so nice, or being so romantic, i feel kinda warm-hearted tho. and feel happy for them of course, and hope that they could last long. and each time my heart whispers, when is gonna be my turn? lol. this sounds desperate tho. nah, i am just being honest. who doesn't want a loving bf, who treat her like a princess? :) 

2. What kind of guy you are looking for? 

At this moment of my life, i need no rich guy to pamper me like a princess, or buy me luxury stuff, or even bring me out for good food when we're on a date. i just need someone who really love me, with his sincere heart, no lies, no cheating. a guy with a good heart attract me the most of course. he has to be a good son, a good sibling, and of course a good bf. i used to like guys who play guitar/piano, guys who play sports, tall and buff guys.. but now, i need no all these. i just need a guy who loves me, and only me. apart from family, i am his priority. a guy who truly cares for me. a guy who has a good sense of humour attracts me as well. he has to be patient to me, because i am that kind of girl who get mood swing quite easily. and most importantly, someone who will never give up on me, and bring the best outta me. :) i know it's hard to find guys with all these criterias, but well. i am listing out what kind of guy i am looking for, no harm. hahaha

3. What's the sweetest affection has someone ever shown to you?

In terms of money, there was this guy who delivered flowers to me on special occasions, or even when I'm moody. It was sweet, and you know, who could resist pretty flowers? i felt blessed at that moment, because someone willing to spend so much on me, just to make me happy. but well, it was a past. 

but as i said, I'm not a money-person. i need no rich guy, but someone who truly cares for me. i just need him to stay by my side, when I'm really down, and cheer me up. i appreciated all those little things he have done, and to receive a daily morning text or good night text, and 'i love you' text, from someone you love, is the sweetest thing ever. 

4. What's the stupidest thing you have ever done for love?

there's always a guy whom you willing to do anything for him regardless what have he done to you in the past. i've been waiting and hoping if there is one day of us getting back together, until i found that he doesn't love me at all. and i was just his investment. it hurts to know that, but it woke me up. and i realised how stupid and dumb i was back then. 

or maybe used up my savings to buy him a bd present, hoping he will use it everyday. but i never seen him using it before. and to do anything he requested, and never say a 'no' to him. and to found out, he might just taking me for granted, and i am not his one and only. it hurts, a lot. 

well, love is blind. and love is something that u can't predict, or foresee. you can never know who's gonna show up the next in your life, and a stranger might just step into your life without you knowing, and he might be your prince. i've learned the hard way, that love aint easy. it needs a lot of faith, trust, beliefs.. 

and in a relationship, if the trust has broken, it can't be amended anymore. and a relationship without trust, it's not gonna work anymore, no matter how much you love that person. sometimes, you just can't say sorry to something that you've done, and act as if nothing happened before. because, once a heart is broken, nothing can heal, but time. it's just like a broken mirror, once it's broken, no matter how you repair it, there is always this scar that you can never ever remove it. 

lol such an emo post. isn't it? 

nah, just sharing some thoughts and feelings. haha

Had dinner with Chermaine yesterday, and had a heart-talk sesh after that at Starbucks. and the barista wrote this on my cuppa salted caramel mocha 'Good to see you smile'. it made my day. :) so kind of him.

Someone should never take his/her partner for granted. If thats the case, what's the point of you guys being together? never hurt someone if you really love him/her. especially a girl. I know nowadays, there is quite a number of playgirls out there. and i call them sluts. but well, if your girlfriend is a good girl, please appreciate her, and love her, because if you do not know how to appreciate her, there is always another guy will. and dont regret if someone else steal her away. 

and i believe in karma. be a good person. treat people nicely, in the end of the day, you will get good karma. 

Ending the post with my vain photo :p

Ps, Don't let anyone to break your heart so easily.