Hey. Kinda miss my blog these days. and u should know why haha. just browsed through some old photos in iPhoto. and saw those photos that once made me smile in the past. and surprisingly, they still manage to put a smile on my face. recalling back the old times, they were actually pretty good and happy. but well, it was all past. had a hard time last night. was asking myself, why would i be in such situation. and a lot of times, i was trying to find excuses for it. i realized, it's still that one reason. pretty much lame, pretty much stupid. and this time, i thought i could be strong, and i always thought i could be cold-hearted. but hell no, pisces are all the same. lol. 

Missing the UK so badly. Wanted to go back to that small town, where i found simplicity and peace. Although loneliness might kick in once in a while, but i was happy all the time. and i was fine being alone sometimes, enjoying shopping alone, enjoying cooking, and all. how i wish time could tune back to 9 months ago. where i was all alone. i know i was too stupid to even have that thought haha.

Back to this familiar place, where i used to call home in my past 21 years, suddenly, feel like leaving this place. started to dislike it, feel like i dont belong to here. Everything seems fine, seems alright. but i just dont feel right. 

it sucks to be me, enough said.

Ps, I think im still the same old pisces.

pooiling.