J.

Finally back in Reading. I didnt do much during this winter break, its so unproductive. ohwell. 

I had the best winter break ever. and it was the first time i dont feel like leaving malaysia. i never regretted for coming back to malaysia during this winter break. i dont know. i cried on the day before i left. i didnt know i will be this sad knowing that i'll be leaving for 6 months. things gonna change in this 6 months time. :/

I appreciated everything that u have done, and thankful for having you being so patient to me. sorry for being indecisive, and hanging everything in the middle of the air, sorry for making you sad, sorry for hurting you with words. because i know if i dont do this, u'll get hurt even more. i rather you hate me, than u wasting time on me. 

and u said '如果要走请你记得我，如果难过请你忘了我'. this is so heartbreaking. 

im such a dumbass. i suck. 

Ps: this song meant so much to me :'(

and i hate this fucking shit. i hate myself. 

pooiling.