J.

there's always a reason behind everything that happened. and this time, i knew the reason why. those should be left unsaid. and i wont complain a single thing bout it anymore. cos' its me who dont give a damn at it in the first place. i understand, i really understand. and now, ur not gonna give a fuck already. and i wouldnt ask more from you. that's the reason why, i stop.

this time, i hurt the most. cos it finally happened. when i thought of i can be the one who heal the fucking thing up. but i couldnt anymore. the wound's too deep and my heart started to sank. i barely breathe.

allow me to be emotional for this freaking night. i couldnt concentrate, so here am i. please allow me to throw watever in my mind, im suffocating. it's funny how im looking into the past at myself. how fucking retarded am i. but the end of the day, im still willing to be the retard, cos' ur the reason why.

laughing the ass off at myself, when i started to cry, it's bleeding in my heart but no one could ever see my invisible tears. . the most hurtful taste i've ever tasted. the most hurtful feeling i've ever felt. who else will my hero, to wipe off my invisible tears?

it's time to really take off my fucking mask.