I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone

BONJOUR!

so guys, i reopen-ed my blog to public as i've promised few days ago. idk wat shud i feel, ohwell :)
i had a great friday and saturday! i love my coursemates so damn much! yesterday was a bliss, seriously. i love being together with them, spending time with them, maybe i am just too relying on the feeling being together w them, that i'll be happy when spending time w them, knowing that im actually not alone. anyway, i was a big big big lazy bummmm on earth! skipped class on thursday. class at 12pm. and i woke up late at 11am. so i decided to skip class LOLOL. went mv w mum to do some grocery shopping instead lol. im a great daughter okay, although im not a good student :O

our criminal lecturer showed us a short video clip of SCREAM. omfg, that's scary. i've no idea where my guts came from to watch scream 4 w the gang. i didnt know that they're going to watch scream 4 at first. and once i reached campus, kaylee told me, "so do u know we're going for movie after class?" i was like so late, after 4pm? then she was like, ohh during that long hour break. then i was like "really?" hahhahahhaa. damn nice weih. at first only the 6 of us are planning to go. then after mr mun onn showed us the video clip and after they knew that we're going for SCREAM 4. they followed us! hahhahaha. the movie was SCARY, yet nice and funny. hahaha. pey tsyr and i were screaming throughout the movie! and it was fucking scary that i keep covering my eyes w my cardigan. lol. cannot take it weih seriously. luckily there are some funny scenes that we laughed so loud in the cinema! LOLOL. it was a nice movie indeed, u guys should go for it. first time ever in my life watching horror movie! felt so proud of myself! my guts just came out of nowhere. but it's still fucking scary that i couldnt sleep at night. the picture keep popping out once i close my eyes. lol. and they're planning to watch ROOMMATE next fri! omfg another horror movie! u guys should know i never watched horror movie, cos i not dare. :/ was planning to go Mist club w the coursemate at night, but too bad my gang of friends not going. so yah lol. anyway, we're planning to go next week perhaps. yay! ;)

so i went out again today! w the collies. heh :) they're just too great. celebrated gan's bd at redbox! skyped w julius too. cos she missed out the fun again! HAHAHHAHAHA. no one asks you to go aussie! and when are u going to let me see the hot guy's pic? hmm? lol was so fun being w them. why ah? lol i dunno lah. i think we're bonded? hmm.. just hope that we wont drift apart as time passes. keep in touch always kay? :) i really glad to have u guys in my life, i miss coll life so much :) how i wish we could be together in uni. :/ glad that gan LOVES the bd gift i chose! hahahha. she said she might be wearing it! HAHA. so funny. cos so u know i was thinking that she's not gonna wear it, i just want her to remember her 19th birthday. that's all LOL. :)

i thought i'll cry today when i was singing those song,
that reminded me of him. but i didnt.
maybe just because of im pretending in front of them. :)

started to feel annoyed, frustrated. fuck off. *pissed*
cmon lah, im not ur anyone, im not necessarily to promise you anything. please lah, u treated ppl this badly, yet hope that ppl will treat u nicer in return. u make ppl feel annoyed u know. stfu lah.

he posted a part of a lyric on my wall. i dun get why. i dun und the meaning of that part of lyrics. i read his notes on fb the other day. it's has been quite a long time since last he wrote poems. he's still that awesome. the poems are amazing :) i dunno, maybe i was just thinking too much. i know the girl in the poem aint me. :)))

Ps: i miss him more and more each day, how? :'/