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J.
3rd March
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Law student
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Summer Love
reminiscing ;
a hard night again. started off my day with something really bad today. that i can sensed that something bad gonna happened. but i kept on telling myself that everything will be alright soon. no matter how convincing am i telling myself, things not gonna turn better. but worst. is this a sign of an end? i dunno. i really dunno. i asked myself, why are u bad mood? something happened? or maybe it's me who caused u bad mood. i admit that im not a perfect, or a good girlfriend. im sorry that im not caring enough, didnt really put interest into the stuff that u like. or didnt do stuff like a girlf will do. indeed, im not a good girlf.
today is a bad day, really a bad day. when i was laying in bed in the afternoon, i was actually thinking of you. i thought of messaging u, but i dare not. because i duwanna get no reply from u. and i think we shouldnt talk to each other for now, because i couldnt stand the coldness and everything. i felt, insecure.
we argued for no reason? i dunno, wtf is happening, wtf is that biggie, that actually caused us argued. i felt helpless. i've told u before, that i hate argueing. because whenever we argue, i feel like crying. not because of the thing we argue of, but we get apart after argueing. i felt so weak at the moment. i dont feel like talking at the moment. and finally i couldnt stand anymore, and tears starting to ran out of my eyes. and finally i fell asleep with my pair of tiring eyes.
it's just so dramatic. the funny thing was there's another couple argued on the same thing. lol. when i saw their conversation, i was like, omfg, this is just like us. so real. lol. but yah.
everything is just so suckish today. i dont like february either. i hate today, and everything just so fucked up.
Ps: i wish tmr will be better.
pooiling.
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